Wednesday, October 24, 2007

imperfections




while people often don't ask us about calla's bump on her head, i'm realizing that people notice. when kids notice they are obvious. we were with friends in minnesota & their 2 year old started squeezing the bump. older kids ask, "what is that?" but when it comes to adults, especially other moms, they don't say anything...they just look (more like stare). sometimes i say something when the staring is especially obvious, but i honestly don't think about her bump so usually i don't say anything about it. but...if any of you have been wondering, her bump is a cluster of small blood blisters. if it burst it would be horribly bloody, look awful, and we would need to take her to the hospital, but it would not be dangerous. it will go away when she is older (probably 2 or 3) so we don't worry it. i took the pictures of it so we could remember it. when calla was in the ISCU we just wanted to be with her & didn't end up taking many pictures...now i wish we'd taken more. so i want to document the things in life that i want our kids to know about, even if they will never remember...and even if they are not fun & pretty. we think calla is perfect & rarely notice her bump, but when she is older i will want to show her the little "imperfection."

5 comments:

Ang said...

That is profound in many ways, we all have imperfections that we spend so much energy covering up! Calla is beautiful and perfect and she will appreciate you documenting her bump. Looks like things are going well for you, miss you tons!

melissa said...

i second angie's comment - what a deeper lesson this can be for so many of us. may both your girls always be proud of who they are, just as they are. hope you are all doing well!

Kristin Jag said...

Our Greta had the same thing when she was around three. Hers just kept getting larger though and we had to get it removed. I actually forgot about it until I saw your post. There really is something special about remembering the past by keeping a journal of some sort-way to go for being proactive.

Snake said...

It seems that you left out the part of the anxiety you had before you found out what it was. Parenting is scary. Probably as bad when new parent's first child has a cold, and they think pneumonia.

However, I know Mike's true intention for the pictures. When Calla brings the first boy over. "Let's look at baby pictures...Yeah, the doctors say it is dormant, but she may be contagious. So, what are your intentions with my daughter (you young punk)?" After a 20-minute interrogation from Mike, the 8-year old boy rushes out the door "I don't know, Sarah, he decided to study alone."

simplicity said...

My little sister had this same thing.

Good for you Sarah for being able to appreciate the little imperfections that make your daughters who they are...it's a lesson to us all to do that in our own day to day life and person.